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Yes I'm alive!

I know - I suck at blogging. I am made of fail in that regard.

However I win at life! For one - I have now lost 80 pounds! I should really do some before and after photos because even I forget sometimes just how major a difference that is.

Second - I have met a guy who is absolutely amazing and am happier than I have ever been. After my divorce I was so busy getting my esthetician license and trying to get back on my feet that dating was the furthest thing from my mind. I got on a couple of online dating sites just to see what they were all about more than anything and even stated in my profiles that I was not interested in serious relationships - just to meet new people and have fun. Talked to a few guys, went on a couple dates with one and then ended up meeting a guy named Bobby and we talked for a while online and then via text before we were actually able to meet up. That was July 1st. We've been joined at the hip ever since. My plan for no serious relationship went right out the window. We have so much in common - like the same music, movies, tv, games and are both photographers, he makes me laugh and makes me feel beautiful. He's got kids as well, a boy and girl, and their ages are right around my kids's ages and they all get along great. The relationship is definitely serious - we're looking at moving in together - and I couldn't be happier.

Moral of that story - if love drops into your lap do NOT ignore it just because you think it's "to soon". Grab hold and don't let go!
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A New Journey Begins

So - some things have been going on and I think I'm at a point now where I can fill everyone in.

My husband and I have separated. It's a friendly split. We've been growing apart for a long time now and we both knew it but never said anything. We care and love each other but only as friends at this point and that's no way to stay married. We agreed it would be better to split now while we're still friends before, eventually, we start resenting each other and it gets nasty. It's better for us this way - but more importantly it's better for our kids. If things are good between us, they'll be better for the kids too.

So far things are going well. I've moved out of the house (no way can I afford the payments) and into my mom's for now. I have a nice upstairs area all to myself. I've been a stay at home mom for about 10 years - my only work being part time/freelance stuff here and there. So getting back into the job market is daunting to say the least. Thankfully I might have found the perfect job for me with The School of Rock. I should know next week but it's all looking really good and I'll get to help train up the next generation of rock stars. Once some steady money is coming in (God please soon) I'll get my own apartment and be truly settled.

The kids are with me a lot. Right now while I"m still just doing crossing guard duty they come home with me for a few hours every day after school and on Wednesdays they spend the night. Weekends we play by ear depending on our schedules. Once the job thing is sorted we'll have a more solid schedule. And the kids are handling it pretty well. We all have our down days but over all I think we're ok.

That being said money and getting my own place and all that is still stressing me out. I haven't had to do anything on my own in over a decade. And don't even get me started on - eventually - getting back into the dating scene. Oh boy. So I'm asking for help in two ways. One is super easy - any prayers/good thoughts/good energy that you can send my way would be much appreciated. I'm blessed with some amazing friends who have done so much for me already but more good thoughts doesn't hurt.

Second - to help me with my money issues and get me in my apartment as soon as possible, I've started selling Scentsy. In case you don't know what that is, Scentsy is an alternative to scented candles. Beautiful warmers that heat up scented wax using a light bulb - Scentsy fills your house/room with awesome scents without the worry of leaving a candle burning, having children or pets tip it over and burn themselves or your floor/furniture - Scentsy wax never gets hot enough to burn, it's like parafin wax. If you're in the DFW area and are interested in getting a catalogue or placing an order send me a message and I'll be happy to help you out. If you're out of the area and are still interested then head to my Scentsy website and you can shop online there and still help me out (just scroll to the bottom of the page and choose the Shop My Online Store link). Scentsy makes fantastic holiday gifts!

On a more positive note - I've reached my first goal in my weight loss journey since getting my lapband in April of 2009. I have now gotten below 200 pounds for the first time in a long time. I've lost 63 pounds and gone from a size 22 (sometimes 24) jeans to a size 16 - nearly to a 14. I'm on my way to really getting my life where I want it. One just has to go through the hard to get to the good.
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So about that blog...


So naturally doing that blog the next day as I stated in my last post didn't happen. I mean it never happens like I plan on it happening. Something always comes up. This is why half of what I plan on getting done never gets done. I have so many CD reviews to write for instance...

Anyway - this is not a CD review. This is a blog! So - I think the last thing I talked about was getting my second fill on my lap band. That's been going well. It's over a year since I had it and I've lost about 57 pounds. A few months ago I hit a stall - not losing but not gaining - and I think I might need another fill. But first I'm trying to just eat better. There's lots I can't eat anymore but there's still plenty of junk food I can eat. The lap band may not be a miracle cure but it's definitely worth the hassle and I'm glad I did it.
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Well this has certainly turned out rather long. I think I'll stop here for now and write more later. Some people over on Valo Daily have expressed an interest in my HIM concert stories so maybe I'll do a few of those. Hmmm the possibilities are endless!
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Is this thing on?

Hey lookie here. I has a LJ! It's odd how I've gotten to the point where I check a few communities on LJ but never actually look at my friend's list anymore or really go check any of my friend's journals. It's not that I don't love you all - I do. I just need several more hours in the day to cram in everything I'm trying to do and LJ has, sadly, fallen on the back burner. That and when I do decide to go look at someone's journal I usually end up heading there and then going 'oh look something shiney!'

I have so much I want to blog about but - I don't. I am a bad blogging type person. And tonight I have no real time to blog either as I must make the kids shower and get ready for bed and make sure all is ready for school in the morning for them and oh yes there's a bit of laundry to fold and ....


So maybe tomorrow I'll have a chance to blog a bit, fill those of you still paying attention (which is, what, one person maybe?) in on what's been up in my crazy world and, you know, stuff like that.

So yeah - I am still alive and kickin' and hopefully I'll post something a little more substantial tomorrow.

It's been a while...

Realized the other day that I haven't updated in forever on this so... here goes.

I had my second fill the day after we got back from Disney, so on June 24th. It looks like, maybe, I've found my sweet spot! Really feel the restriction now when I eat. The amount I can eat has gone down and I am finding things that flat out won't work anymore. Like bread. Ain't gonna happen. If I eat bread or anything bread like (i.e. cake) it feels like I swallowed a rock and I want to die lol. Have you ever taken a drink and swallowed an air bubble? Feels like that only worse. It'll go away after a bit when things settle or the food that has gotten stuck finally goes down but it certainly makes you not want to eat anything else.

Most meats seem to be ok. Haven't tried steak yet but ground beef is good, turkey, ham, chicken (so long as it's juicy). Pastas are the easiest and most veggies and fruit have been good. I can do tortillas oddly enough and so far have had no probs with Mexican food in general. Rice is iffy. Sometimes it's fine, sometimes it's not. Chicken salad is good an most days I end up eating those little premade chicken salad and cracker packs you get at the stores. That is more than enough to satisfy me.

I have now officially lost 40 pounds and am down to a size 18 jeans! I feel great! We've also gotten my blood thinner medication leveled out so only have to go once a month now for that. Should be off that in October, thank God! Between the weight loss and the hair cut I'm being told I look so much thinner and younger and it's a fantastic feeling!

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